Weight Loss Challenge

I just got back from Vegas and it was a really fun trip. I dont have to explain what I did because "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas " just know it involved alcohol, food and fun. However, now I am back ans ready. Summer is half way down and I have not lost much weight. It is a constant up and down with the scale. But  summer is  whining down I need to get on it. I have set a couple goals and  I am hoping that my scale yo-yoing will encourage  me to lose some real weight. I am doing this with my boyfriend and i am looking forward to it. Our first weigh in on September 3rd. I will keep you updated on how things our going.

Current weigh in:
Taylor:181
Debora:132

"Real Weight Gain"

When I weighed myself on Friday I knew I had not gained 3pounds in a day, that seems impossible (requires the consumption of 10500 calories, which I can not intake in one day ). Although I was weighing in at 133, I knew it was most likely due to the amount of food I ate the day before, the composition of the food (salty fried food most likely bloating me) and the fact that I had not had a bowel movement. It was scary nonetheless, to see that number staring back at me. 133 is closer 135 than 130 and I had worked hard to get rid of those 5 pounds and did not intend on gaining it  back.  So, even when  I knew that the possibility of going to the bathroom and waiting a day would take me back to my "normal weight" of 130 I was scared and disappointed, it was a never again moment.  I am glad I had that wake up call. Lately I have been feeling defeating and not in the right mindset. Today I stepped on the scale and was down to 128.2.  You might think it is stupid for me to obese so much but at one point in my life I was 167.9 and I still feel  like that big girl from time to time.

That's me on the right (I have very few photos of me from that time, I wonder why)

 My struggle with my weight and body are not over. If I'd have to measure my success I'd say I am at the halfway point of where I am suppose to be. My stomach  is my main "problem  area" and I have insecurities, like many other individuals.  In previous post I explain I  will try to obsess less about weight and I will, but it is easier said than done. Now that I am back to my "normal weight" I will stop weighing myself every day. Losing weight is still a priority but I need to focus on changing my relationship with food,  NO more binge days, that is not healthy for anyone. NO more using junk food as a treat. I have to reevaluate my goals and remember why I started this in the first place, I wanted to be healthy and fit, sometimes a number on the scale can not measure those things.

Moving on the a lighter note, there is a blog I follow called The Road to Less Cake, it is also the journey about a  young lady, Nikki, who  like myself trying to get fit and eat less cake (hmmmm....sounds exactly like my struggles). She is such an great  blogger, she has been doing great  on her road to less cake, today post was on Marilyn Monroe.  She passed away 50  years ago today. Nikki has a great post with picture of Miss Marilyn (click here to read), inspired by her I decided to post my all time favorite picture of miss Marilyn

I came across this picture a couple years back at a poster sale, I love it. I think it has to do with the fact that she is lifting weights although, as a weight lifter myself I have to say  her grip seems weird almost a bit off but who cares, it's Marilyn Monroe!!

 Anyways,  keep checking back on my progress I promise I will buckle down with my eating habits and I will keep posting on my successes and my not so successes. 

These are my confessions (Singing voice)

I thought about not blogging about this but I figured I should, I owe it to all of those who are going to the same struggles. I went to the orange county fair yesterday with my boyfriend. The fair is known for its greasy food, carnival games and crazy rides. There were tons of food vendors and food trucks, anything from fried oreos, fried twinkies even fried frog legs. Pretty much fried food galore. I did not eat any of this things in particular but I did share a mexican funnel cake :/ with the boyfriend.

  I did not have anything super unhealthy but I ate stuff that is not part of my diet and a lot of it .

I did eat some waffle fries!

Well I said I was not going to weigh myself but ended up doing so and it was scary , I am weighing in at 133. I had not seen this number in such a long time it is scary. It scared me so much I was not even sure how to approach my meal plan. Many diets recommend a fast day after a beinge day but I  work today an 11hour  day and not eatting is not going to fly. I decided to eat very lean, small meals and take snacks to work. This is like my regular meal plan except I know I have very few slip up room. Maybe this is a good thing, maybe this will scare me straight and I will not beinge eat.

Here I will leave you with some other pictures of the fair:

Boyfriend and I

with my favorite Italian chef- Fabio Viviani

Here are some pictures of some of the decadent food sold at the fair (I did not eat this):

Fried Oreos

HUGE sausage dog

chocolate covered bacon 

Checking In

I have been on this journey for a while and sadly it is something I will probably struggle with all my life. But looking back I have made great strides. Before this blog I was 169 pounds, my heaviest.  Currently, I am weighing in at 129.9 with my plateau weight being 130. It is been hard because I feel I have been doing all the right things but not losing weight however, after reflecting I realized I need to go beyond that number in the scale and realize how much stronger I am today then I was in the past. I can actually do push-ups (off my knees), I see muscle definition on my arms and legs. There are other ways to measure success besides my weight. I am trying to focus on those things and not so much on the scale. I am cycling my carbs and calories with  low calorie/carbohydrate day and high calorie/carbohydrate day. I feel good but I am never hungry and sometimes I am literally forcing myself to eat, but I do it to eat 5-6 times a day. I plan to continue to check in and let you know how it is going.

Hello, do you remember me?

Well I have been gone for literally forever. My last post was published May 21 I believe, It has been a little over 2 months, well I am alive and well.  In those 2 months I have struggled to lose weight. Like previous post my weight goes from 127-132 depending on my eating habits but I cannot get lower than 130 ( for more than a day), that has become my plateau weight.

It has been tough mentally because most of the time my diet is both healthy, varied and includes low carb, high protein. It has been extremely frustrating.  I know I have posted before that it is not about the weight and honestly it isn't, but when your doing the "right" things and the scale is not budging it is discouraging.  I was letting the weight on the scale get to me to the point where it was sabotaging my life. No weight loss = binge day however, I have never gave up because in the back of my mind I was doing it to become healthy. I decided to stop weighing myself, everyday, and start focusing on how I felt. Let me tell you that  when I eat health, when I diet and exercise I DO NOT feel "fat" nor bloated. The last couple of days in June and July I was focusing on that but I still one to lose 10 pounds so I decided to do something about it.

The next couple of post will detail what I have been doing in detail, I have already lost 4 pounds :).

Untitled

I never know what to title my post so I titled this oneUntitled. I am so frustruated with myself, it seems I take one step forward and not 2 but 3 steps back. I am tired of having a bad relationship with food, I do not use it as fuel I seem to abuse it, sometimes. What can I do to change this relationship? There is always more than one excuse to not follow through on my diet plan, whether it is a party, work potluck, event etc. Will I ever figure it out and fight my way through or will I continue stumbling, just getting by? For know I came across the Ultimate 10 day plan to trim fat from good . It was on the Dr, Oz show. I plan to do this diet for the next 10 days, similar to what I usually do on a good diet day. I don't know if I have lost all hope in myself or what but lets see where this takes me. Night!

Hello there Stranger

I have been gone for a while and so much has happened. First of all, my tooth healed great I was out of the gym for about one week. Then I was in and out of the gym throughout. My diet was actually great but I have been missing the exercise part not that I haven't it just was not  consistent. Any who, this post is about getting back on track but most importantly something that happened to me recently.

The Elephant in the Room
This might be a TMI moment so please bear with me, I had a cut on my breast which was bothering me, I thought it was a possible scratch. I work the graveyard shift and on Thursday after work (it was technically Friday in the wee hours of the morning) I was in the bathroom checking it out. For whatever reason I was persuaded to feel around and discovered a lump. Yes a lump. I was not scared but I felt the need to call my boyfriend. I was a little freaked out, I will admit. I mean I am 21 years old I should not be worrying about breast cancer. I am at my ideal weight and am physically active, if I would have to rate my diet I'd give it an overall B-. So what is this lump?
This all happened on Thursday, I went to the doctor's today. She said she felt there was nothing to worry about but she sent me to have an ultrasound done because it feels hard and the area around it is sore therefore it might be a cyst.

Wake up Call
This is unfortunate but it is eye opening, I will never miss a breast self exam again. I will continue to watch my health and this is what I needed to take my healthy search to the next level. If you have been following my blog you will notice I have been struggling with finding an inspiration to take me to the next level and I think this is it. The health scare made me feel the need to pursue a healthier life style with less processed food and more fruits and vegetables. It is only what I deserve and what all of us deserve. Our body is our temple and it needs the proper fuel to keep us going for years to come.

Ill keep you guys updated on my heath but I feel I have nothing to worry about.


Bye for now,
Debby