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I never know what to title my post so I titled this oneUntitled. I am so frustruated with myself, it seems I take one step forward and not 2 but 3 steps back. I am tired of having a bad relationship with food, I do not use it as fuel I seem to abuse it, sometimes. What can I do to change this relationship? There is always more than one excuse to not follow through on my diet plan, whether it is a party, work potluck, event etc. Will I ever figure it out and fight my way through or will I continue stumbling, just getting by? For know I came across the Ultimate 10 day plan to trim fat from good . It was on the Dr, Oz show. I plan to do this diet for the next 10 days, similar to what I usually do on a good diet day. I don't know if I have lost all hope in myself or what but lets see where this takes me. Night!

Hello there Stranger

I have been gone for a while and so much has happened. First of all, my tooth healed great I was out of the gym for about one week. Then I was in and out of the gym throughout. My diet was actually great but I have been missing the exercise part not that I haven't it just was not  consistent. Any who, this post is about getting back on track but most importantly something that happened to me recently.

The Elephant in the Room
This might be a TMI moment so please bear with me, I had a cut on my breast which was bothering me, I thought it was a possible scratch. I work the graveyard shift and on Thursday after work (it was technically Friday in the wee hours of the morning) I was in the bathroom checking it out. For whatever reason I was persuaded to feel around and discovered a lump. Yes a lump. I was not scared but I felt the need to call my boyfriend. I was a little freaked out, I will admit. I mean I am 21 years old I should not be worrying about breast cancer. I am at my ideal weight and am physically active, if I would have to rate my diet I'd give it an overall B-. So what is this lump?
This all happened on Thursday, I went to the doctor's today. She said she felt there was nothing to worry about but she sent me to have an ultrasound done because it feels hard and the area around it is sore therefore it might be a cyst.

Wake up Call
This is unfortunate but it is eye opening, I will never miss a breast self exam again. I will continue to watch my health and this is what I needed to take my healthy search to the next level. If you have been following my blog you will notice I have been struggling with finding an inspiration to take me to the next level and I think this is it. The health scare made me feel the need to pursue a healthier life style with less processed food and more fruits and vegetables. It is only what I deserve and what all of us deserve. Our body is our temple and it needs the proper fuel to keep us going for years to come.

Ill keep you guys updated on my heath but I feel I have nothing to worry about.


Bye for now,
Debby

Taking Time Off

Hey guys,
as you know that I was doing  a challenge where I was going to eat clean and exercise twice a day for 30 days, it was a bikini challenge I made for myself however, that has now been put on hold. I had a real bad tooth ache and went to the doctor on Monday and it was my wisdom tooth and I needed to get it extracted asap. I went in today and had it pulled out. Let me tell you I as so so so nervous. Thankfully the tooth  was not impacted, it was already exposed and all it took was a little general anesthesia and pressure and the tooth came out. Now I am sitting in bed resting. I am icing it every so often so the swelling will go down and I will probably take a nap soon. Thankfully, I don't work until Friday night and might not go to school tomorrow. I can only eat soft foods so jello, pudding and Atkins shakes for me. Tomorrow it will be vegetable juices all day. As for working out, I can't most likely until monday.  I do not want to get dry socket :/. Until later my loves!


xoxoxo
Debora

Motivation

If you have read my previous post you should know I am looking for motivation, I need to find a way to take my diet/exercise to the next level. Besides planning on eating clean (nothing processed, no bread, grain, pasta starch) I also plan on taking my exercise to the next level. Starting Monday I will be doing twice a days, meaning I will be workout twice a day. I plan on continuing this until May 9th which will end with a visit to my schools nutritionist where he will take my weight and body fat percentage. I am excited, I have something to be accountable to. Besides the scale, I have bought a bikini which I plan on debuting soon after the 9th of May and I will take pictures with it progressively. Here are the starting shots:

 I hate taking mirror shots, they never do justice or they exaggerate (by exaggerate I mean make it look better thanyo look, and this clearly was not one of those cases,....)the looks so I took different shots in different places with both my iPad and Camera.

Here is another shot, I can see ab line, can you? NO :(

 Expect the next shoots in a week on t he 16th, 23rd, 30th, finishing with the 9th of May.

Wish me luck!!

xoxoxo,

Debora Hernandez

Quick check-in

Okay so weighed myself on Wednesday and I was 130.5, have not lost or gained a significant amount. I am trying. I have been going to the gym almost daily, 6 days a week but I can get the whole eating clean thing down for a significant amount of time. I am not quite sure how to take it to the next level. I guess it does not help I am in a safe zone (weight wise). I do not know what to do, should I start a goal list? what do you guys do when you need a little extra motivation?

On another note I took my kitty kat to the vet today, here are some pictures of the baby:

Here she is at the vet, yearly check-up. I found out she is a little overweight and needs to go on a low carb diet like her mama. 

All buckled up. She has a cat carrier but my older sister borrowed it, this was an unexpected visit because earlier this week she lost her "meow. But she is okay, just  a little overweight. 

Happy Thursday

Goal weight -

My goal weight since I started this journey back when I was a sophomore in college has always been 130. I was the heaviest at 167.9 and I set 2 weight goals 130 would be my goal and 125 my ultimate goal weight. At me lightest, throughout this journey I bounced from 136-138 and when I returned home from studying abroad I was at 145 but ever since my return in July I can say I have worked hard to get here.

I promised myself I would get a belly ring at 130 but now I am thinking I want to lose more before I get the ring. Also I have a new ultimate ultimate weightless goal of around 120-123. I feel like I have more weight to lose on my stomach and thigh area.
P.S. I added before pictures I took back when I started in February. </ br>