Girl on a mission

I am on a mission to get in the best shape of my life. So much has changed in my life recently. After graduatin college in June 2013, I ended a 5 year relationship and moved to the DC metropolitan area. I managed to keep well balance between being an unpaid intern and fitness but when I finally got a full time job  that all changed. All of a sudden I am exhausted, I find no interest in working out and I find myself over indulge in way to sugary foods. 10 extra pounds later, I am here..  Sitting on a metro, running late to work, once again, feeling fat and bloated. I wore a dress because I am pretty sure nothing else in my close fits. I feel uncomfortable and unattractive. My confidence level is non existent and I've realized my uncomfortableness is perspiring I my job. I don't want to do anything, I just want to lay in bed all day and do nothing at all. I am not in a good place at all. I've allowed myself too many distractions including wasting my time with boys and a few men.  And I say, wasting my time, because I knew going in that I wanted to have nothing serious with any of them. Because of boredom I allowed myself to waste my time. So pretty much I have hit rock bottom in all aspects of my life. Now I am left to pick up the pieces of what was once and overly confident, happy in a long term relationship, fit girl.

**if this is how you feel rigt now, know you are not alone. If I can do, 

it you can too. No need to wait untill Monday or next month or the new year. Let's start together, today!! Join me on my fitness journey. It will be long and hard but I promise you it will be worth it!!!!!**

Sometimes you have to fall...

So you can pick yourself back up and succeed. 

If you read my previous  post, it was not to positive. I was down in the dumps, recovering from a gym injury and binge eating...

I was eating because I was sad, I was eating because I was depressed, I was eating because I was hurt, anxious, happy, desperate, I was eating because I wanted to eat. For about 3 days straight I ate everything I could find and stuff in my mouth. It was BAD. And of course, as the cycle of binge eating goes because I was depressed that I ate all the cookies, I felt Fat,  so I ate more cookies... as if that would make me feel better?!

I remember one time I read an excerpt from the book "The Day I Ate Everything I Wanted" from  Elizabeth Berg, (Read the excerpt here) It felt a little like that. I was trying to stuff as much food in my mouth  before the day was over because obviously, I was starting my diet the next day. Isn't that what we always say, I'll start my diet tomorrow. Yeah well, tomorrow never comes. Eventually, after 3 days, I feel disgusting. I do not mean it as in I hate myself disgusting, literally, my body feels disgusting.  I mean can you imagine after three days of stuffing flour, fats, more fats and sugar down your throat, how would you feel?

After I loathed in my misery for a while I decided to do something...I went back to the drawing board. There has to be something lacking in my diet that is causing me to binge so out of control. I think it is to restrictive. I talked to a couple of friends who suggested I started counting macros to make sure I am getting enough nutrients. I will have a whole blog about macro nutrients. Right  whats important for you to now is that I am doing better. And I will be Successful at this. Sometimes you just have to fall to pick yourself back up and succeed.  

Tomorrow (no pun intended, or I should say later on today, it is 1 am here in California) I will post more info on macros and what my new nutrition plan and goals will be. Right now it is bed time. Good night my fellow bloggers.